Whoa man!

I've been incredibly tilted lately as almost all of my games certainly did NOT go my way. My downswing had reached an all time high of 70 buy-ins and I felt so sick of it. EvertonYorkie, leeda111, takeitsleazy and z32 all kinda slapped some sense into me and talked me into watching some vids on some 45s and mostly on emotional control when it involves variance and such.

So I downloaded a couple vids of Jackal from cardrunners and those helped with my play tremendously but I was still getting sucked out on but obv there's no vids you can watch that can help with you getting all your chips in the pot with KK and losing to A5s.

Then z32 sat with me and watched me play for abit and my graph went up for a bit but made no sense to me as I was playing exactly the same way I had always played. Perhaps it was just his presence? Who knows, but almost immediately after he left my downswong continued with a much harder blow. I couldn't win my 60/40 fips, even my 70/30 flips and AA, forget it. I lost with AA almost every time I had it the last 9 times it was dealt to me. Fooking ridiculous imo.

I then found a vid series on DeucesCracked called "Real Life: Micro SNG Grinder" and downloaded all 7 vids. I only watched the first one as it was a ridiculous 1 hour and 31 minutes long. However, it was a big eye opener when it came to looking at variance and downswings and such. I felt like a little lightbulb turned on in my head and immediately wanted to play some games!

So obv I did what any poker lover would do and fired up a small session with my new found motivation. I only loaded 6x $3 45s and it was a good session. I FT bubbled 3 of them(going out 10th, 12th and 15th) and managed to take 1st in two of them and a 2nd place to finish off the session. I feel good about my performance and my game felt so much better. I just ordered some pizza so I'm gonna wait till after I eat to play another session. Here's a graph of my last 100 games:


Also I must say that I'm very proud to admit that since June 3rd I've put in 700 games. That's by FAR the most games I've played in this small amount of time, much less even a month. I think before this the most games I played in an entire month was 400 give or take a few. I'm on my way to being a successful grinder imo!