GG downswong for awhile

Well my downswong had hit an all time low with 52 games and zero cashes just a couple days ago and obv I was pretty upset dropping $300 from the roll. I was so tilted and felt like a degen so fired up one last $6/45 and two $12/45s... I didn't expect to do anything as obv I hadn't cashed in the last 52. Turns out I took 4th in the $6/45 and took down both the $12s haha. GG Downswong!

It was all good until yesterday when I played another 20 games and no cashes. The variance in these are so sick. I'm once again down like $200 cuz of MTTs as well. I need to stop degening and playing outside of my roll. I had a really good run in the $3r again and was 3rd in chips with 350 left but got all in preflop with QQ against the chip leader's KJo... Obv he's the biggest fucking idiot donkey in the world for getting all in there but what can I do. He spikes his K and gg nemo.

I've been watching a few vids on CardRunners for MTTSnGs by Jackal. He's so sick imo. Awesome vids and they really motivate me to play. I also think it's funny that in both of his 45-manner vids he's playing with j0hndayt0n and BigJoe2003 so that's pretty cool. He actually busts them both out of the tourns which makes it even more interesting to me.

I'm gonna get back to my grind and try to get outta my current downswong. Hopefully I can turn things around finally. I'm due for an upswing again.